When Emotions are Running High
And you realize that ANGER is creative energy channeled in unproductive ways!
I am sitting on the floor of my bedroom cursing out loud, stating to myself that this journey can’t be this hard. Am I making it harder than it needs to be? Am I resistant to all the changes happening within me? Am I a control freak? And the resounding answer screamed back to me is a big and loud YES!!!!
But then I acknowledge that I have put in years, months, hours, and seconds of deep inner healing work and introspection. Asking deep and difficult questions about myself and all the crap held in my subconscious. So with all this self-realization I still can’t be this screwed up right?!
NOPE! My inner child speaks back to me with a tender and compassionate smile. “You are expressing your creative energy through anger,” she says with a wink, and then a light bulb moment rushes up from deep within as I realize finally that I too have creativity within me. That I too am a creative and passionate person but I wasn’t able to see underneath all the gunk and mud.
Today anger is a blessing in disguise for me because it helped define my creativity for the first time. It brought it out in the open in real time and it brought me so much happiness and peace. It opened a door that was locked within me. Now my awareness is on finding a more productive way to channel my CREATIVITY.
