The Idea of You Breakthrough Moment…
Watching Anne Hathaway (Solene) make the decision to sacrifice her happiness for her daughter (Izzy) hit me hard and in a deeper different way. I felt the grief of all women past, present, and future. This idea that a womens’ womanness is not enough therefore she has to sacrifice herself for something or someone else has been the “modus operandi” throughout human history. But it also brought through a significant self-awareness towards my fear of opening my heart to love.
I am terrified of trusting again, putting myself out there and getting hurt. Terrified of being vulnerable and to surrender to the possibilities of THE FOOLS’ JOURNEY. I have been doing a lot of healing on my own for the past several years but as my cousin so passionately put it “YOU CAN DO SO MUCH HEALING ON YOUR OWN BEFORE YOU HAVE TO PRACTICE ON OTHER PEOPLE” so young and yet so wise.
For now, this will have to be enough. This is a big realization and an even bigger step. It is the first time that I admit this to myself. That I recognize it out loud and accept it. And like everything else in life, I am sure this truth will expand on itself. So here it is, my truth. One that I have been too scared to admit or to hold myself accountable for. But it is okay. Healing takes courage and time.